Droppie [infosec] 🐨:archlinux: :kde: :firefox_nightly: :thunderbird: :vegan:<p>For a long time i thought i was a nihilist, given that i regard existence as completely pointless & utterly without purpose. One day though i thought i should check, & because everything is an effort coz nothing has value, i merely consulted <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nihilism" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" translate="no" target="_blank"><span class="invisible">https://</span><span class="">en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nihilism</span><span class="invisible"></span></a>. Well, lots therein rang bells, but the bit that threw me was... </p><blockquote><p>knowledge is impossible, or that some other highly regarded concepts are in fact meaningless or pointless</p></blockquote><p>...coz i emphatically disagree with that. When my ennui & depression & misanthropy were only in formative phases, several decades ago, I played at being a professional engineer for a few decades, & was/remain someone utterly of the scientific persuasion... so i'm the last peep to posit that knowledge does not exist. </p><p>Note, i believe in <em>knowledge</em>, not <em>fairytales</em>, hence my fulsome repudiation of all the evil & hypocritical bullshit that is religion. Ugh 🤢🤮</p><p>More recently, i now suspect my funk is that my support of engineering & science is constantly made farcical as i reflect on what humans over the last couple of hundred years have done with them. Weapons [guns, bombs, mustard gas, sarin et al], capitalism [with all the hideous social inequity, despair & unfairness resultant], climate & biodiversity destruction [which are going to end most of us, only our species remains too stupid, venal & myopic to see what's coming & act accordingly], etc. </p><p>Worse, all over this fscken rock political structures are rewarding those who champion stupidity, ignorance, unlearning, greed, nastiness, bigotry, & unbridled hate. How can i see all this & not believe that this entire existence shitshow is valueless & pointless?</p><p>So, i dunno, maybe i'm not a proper nihilist, maybe i'm only a demi-nihilist? If my name was Erica, maybe i'd be <em>Erica The Half A Nihilist</em>? Or maybe i'm not any kind of nihilist at all, instead just someone who sees little but bad all around, nothing of planetary hope, & bucketloads of humans who are ghastly. </p><p>🤔🤷♀️</p><p>Fsck it. Bring on the asteroid. </p><p><a href="https://infosec.space/tags/Nihilism" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Nihilism</span></a> <a href="https://infosec.space/tags/nihilist" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>nihilist</span></a> <a href="https://infosec.space/tags/Existentialism" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Existentialism</span></a> <a href="https://infosec.space/tags/ExistentialCrisis" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>ExistentialCrisis</span></a> <a href="https://infosec.space/tags/depression" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>depression</span></a> <a href="https://infosec.space/tags/ennui" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>ennui</span></a> <a href="https://infosec.space/tags/misanthropy" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>misanthropy</span></a> <a href="https://infosec.space/tags/ClimateCrisis" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>ClimateCrisis</span></a></p>