What most folks consider to be forgiveness is actually just acceptance. They just stop arguing with what happened.
True forgiveness requires you to completely remove the stories you're telling about the experience. Most people never get there because they aren't on a healing path. Unless you're on a healing path or you're working towards self-mastery, you aren't likely to work this hard.
For those that are on the healing path, acceptance is the first step. This is what will free you to begin to heal yourself more fully. This is what frees you to go down the path of self-mastery if you want to.
Have you accepted those experiences you had back there yet?
Can you get around the stories so you can just stop arguing with what happened?
It's not easy all the time, but it is definitely possible. I've done it and you can do it too.
Love to all.
Della