In Eric Clapton's song "Tears in Heaven," there are two parts that make me feel like he discovered something I also discovered years ago, and which I could say is the synthesis of how I see life, especially mine.
The first is the chorus, which says:
"Time can bring you down
Time can bend your knees
Time can break your heart
Have you begging please"
It's an acknowledgment that life can be very painful, and indeed it is...
The second is the last verse, which says:
"Beyond the door
There's peace I'm sure
And I know there'll be no more
Tears in Heaven"
It's the understanding that his pain, the pain of his entire life, will only be relieved with death, when he crosses that door he speaks of.
And for those two reasons, I listen to this song thousands of times until I'm tired, because that man experienced tremendous adversity when his young son died and understood something I also deeply understand.
The only relief I can achieve while alive is a fairly acceptable tranquility that comes at the cost of giving up on living, because that's precisely what hurts. Love, tenderness, and small moments of beauty are beautiful snacks while one waits for that final relief.
This is the deepest and most important thing I've learned in these 62 years of earthly life.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tUU1GLMdnkM